Uncertain Memories

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2009-08-22T07:08:00.000+08:00

okay.

2009-08-22T06:05:00.003+08:00

okay, this blog is dead. im sorry haha

school's been argh. i want it to end like right now.

andddd i made this :]

i can't find the "before" images but it's 2 images blended together

credit hereeee

2009-08-14T06:31:00.001+08:00

Hi, school sucks.

anyway, i lost everyone's addresses because i got a new phone and all of them were saved in my old phone.
can you give it to me again?
i plan on sending out postcards this weekend :]

miss you all! ♥

OMG

2009-08-10T11:02:00.004+08:00

School tomorrow and I can't sleep. I think I'll be sleeping in school. Just like old times :] LOL

Back to the asshole.

2009-08-09T02:59:00.002+08:00

I've been tolerating my stepdad since like the beginning?
Like ever since I met him.

He's a complete jackass.

99.999999999999999999999999999999999999% of the time, he pretends I don't exist.

whenever he wants to do something, he'll get my mother to leave the house with him even though me and my mother has already made plans.

He acts all i love you and stuff but it's all damn fake and everyone knows it.

I really can't wait til my mother divorces him like all her other exs :]

i hate him.

2009-08-08T09:19:00.002+08:00

I'm tired.
we went to the phone store to get my phone fixed.
we went to staples to get some school stuff.
we went to sally's to get nail polish stuff.
we went to walmart to get more school stuff.

i don't need to go out while i still feel like puking every 2 minutes LOL.

oh yeah, i've been extremely sick for the past few days. I had to throw up like every few hours and i wasn't even eating :[

anyway, just a random update :]

bye

DRAMA!

2009-08-07T05:29:00.006+08:00

Okay so, I was online the other day and I saw one of my ex online too and I was like "HEY JOHNNNNNNNNNN!! :]" and the person on his account said it wasn't him, it was his girlfriend, Cindy.
Then I remembered Cindy was John's bestfriend from like last year. He told me she moved away or something but they were really close friends and nothing more and I believed him. Then like a month after we met, I started dating him.
A FEW DAYS AGO, I asked Cindy if she was his girlfriend from like last year and she said yeah. So I was like wth? Am I like a slut or something? Dating SOMEONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND? So we started talking and she started saying how he was always happier to see me and stuff.
Then like a a few nights after that, I got an IM from John telling me I'm a slutty liar and he wished he never met me and I used him for money LOL
So I copied and pasted EVERYTHING he said that night and pasted it to Cindy.
So Cindy was like what the hell? You didn't say those stuff, I did, and I'm like I KNOW! So she got upset cause HE DID CHEAT ON HER and he's been using her like a tool.

Now we've both considered him forgotten :]

theend.

working video :]

2009-07-31T03:39:00.001+08:00

too lazy to upload :[

2009-07-30T04:44:00.003+08:00

videoo! pictures tmr.

2009-07-26T12:46:00.001+08:00

long day today.

2009-07-26T12:38:00.002+08:00

first off, ill reply to tags later, im dead tired.

second, i love chuck :D he's so cute =] the picture's blurry of him though.

thirdly, i went to a sweet 16 today. fun =] a lot of funny moments. i'm uploading videos from the party on youtube right now.

pictures & videos will be on the next blog. im going to bed now.

peace :D

UPDATE

2009-07-25T01:25:00.003+08:00

My niece, Mia came over yesterday and today. She's so cute even when she's angry haha!

got my body back, JEANNETTE AND BEVERLY ♥

Anyway, I've registered for school. When everyone saw me, they were surprised to see me lol.
I've been reading eclipse and it's a good book :]
I'm waiting for the new season of gossip girl to come out :[
Me and CHUCK have never been better :D
And i'm supposed to be watching my niece right now.

I needa get on msn more. i haven't been talking to any of you in awhile :[ I'll try to go to sleep earlier and wake up earlier.

WHAT THE HELL? why are you guys playing with BRA?

oh and i need your address :] i want to send postcards :D i found some old postcards about georgia leftover from my 8th grade project.

send me your email when i get on msn or email me @ claudia.ong@hotmail.com.

ttyl xoxo claudia ong LOL

beauty

2009-07-10T01:31:00.007+08:00

Everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it.

Confucius

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new skin. not pink :[

home sweet home ♥

2009-07-07T10:12:00.002+08:00

For the past few weeks since I came back, I've been sleeping in my brother's room because my father was repainting it. Finally, it's finally ready :] I slept in my bed for the first time since I came back and it felt great!

I haven't really been on msn since I came back and I miss you guys! I'll try to wake up earlier and get online earlier so I am able to talk to my lame friends :]

♥ Claudia

YOU PEOPLE!

2009-07-06T06:13:00.004+08:00

past.

present.

future ♥

i need to webcam with every single one of you! i miss singapore like crazy! usa feels like.. i'm home again.. nothing really interesting in your own home. LOL

anyway, yesterday was the 4th of july. usa's independence day. saw a million fireworks but i didn't take any pictures. it's legal to have your own private firework show here so by 9pm, you could hear fire engine sirens everywhere LOL

while i was out, in a headband, t-shirt & shorts, some mexican guy with a girlfriend by his side, kept glancing at me every few seconds. this reminds me of how open guys here are lmao.

yay to be home again..

have a GREAT day! xoxo

OOVOO

2009-06-30T07:40:00.004+08:00

CARRIE ♥

CHUCK ♥♥

love him, love her :]

been in a oovoo frenzy mood lol.

I had a dream last night.

2009-06-28T04:51:00.002+08:00

I had a weird dream last night.

I was still in singapore and i was doing my own stuff when i heard my cousin, Elizabeth (who was living with us for some reason) arguing with our grandma like a little brat. She's like 20+ now haha anyway I got annoyed so i went out there to tell Elizabeth to shut up.

then somehow, i ended up tearing up her blouse revealing her bra? haha
and for some reason, my uncle dave was still alive in my dream and he lived in the same block.
so she got angry and went up to him and i was like "i know why you're going up, because you're trying to get me into trouble, well i can get you into A LOT more trouble" and she said "hmm lets see who will he believe, me or you."

So we went upstairs and suddenly all my relatives started appearing and they brought prata.

*prata was what I had along with my cousin, aunts and brothers for breakfast before cremating my uncle.

so what was weird is everyone brought prata to my uncle dave's house and he was alive in my dream and prata was the meal i had before "sending him off"

when i analyzed my dream, i started feeling emotional but i stopped myself.

anyway, i'm at home alone right now with my dog and nothing to do so i decided to share my weird dream (: it's probably extremely confusing to you haha

new skin

2009-06-27T10:57:00.001+08:00

new skin. classic PINK ♥

LOVE

2009-06-27T10:18:00.007+08:00

pictures from the hospital:

my mother is overprotective. FMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFML :[

life's boring. i need a freaking car man :[
mom: your dad was gonna get your a RED MIATA
me: GOOD GOOD GET ME ONE!!
mom: i said no.
me: -.-

her reason? insurance would be extremely high & people would want me to drive them and its red so cops are more likely to pull me over and its a sports car blahblahblah. fmlfmlfml.
i want a stinking convertible! OR BMW or some car that looks good haha

MIATA!!

imisshimiwishhewouldcomehomeandcallmealready!

news

2009-06-25T20:39:00.002+08:00

transformer 2 is like the best movie EVER! you all should watch it (:

& out of nowhere last night, my dad decided that we should take a vacation and decided to go to disney world in 3 weeks for 3 nights (: my mom is now on a strict diet so she doesnt look fat in pictures LOL

anyway theres not much to blog about. bye xoxo

MARY

2009-06-23T06:57:00.006+08:00

YESTERDAY I HUNG OUT WITH MARY FOR THE FIRST TIME IN WHAT SEEMS LIKE FOREVER AND IMMEDIATELY SHE SPENT LIKE $50 ON ME BECAUSE I KEPT BUYING ALOT OF CANDY AND MAGAZINES FROM WALMART. ANYWAY I TOOK SOME PICTURES. ENJOY. just felt like typing in caps (:

Maryy & I in walmart. Shoe aisle (:

Camwhoring in her house like old times (:

Jealous? haha you can see the messy-ness of my disastrous temporary room.

i know im wearin the same blouse as my previous post because i bought that blouse on the other day and i felt like wearing it to take pictures haha then i wore it again because the blouse is just that awesome (:

MALL

2009-06-21T21:38:00.002+08:00

what a color skirt that JEANNETTE WOULD LOVE! haha omg that thing made me laugh so I took a picture of it (:

We went into some sport store and I made him take a million pictures until we took a nice one, this is definitely not the nice one LOL

Went into another store, saw a full mirror, took a picture and walked out LOL it's his fault I promise!

shopping

2009-06-21T08:28:00.005+08:00

i know what B&J would say, SO AMERICAN! haha. I had fun shopping with Mike today (: poor him, had to walk all over the mall with me and wait for me while I try on the clothes.

have fun shopping in thailand B! Everyone is going out overseas. What a beautiful day (: LOL

PICTURES

2009-06-20T21:41:00.004+08:00

It's almost 10am and everyone's still asleep. they're PIGS. i'm texting mike but he's hitting the gym soon. so im very bored right now and uploaded some pictures from my phone (:

Storm clouds from 2 days ago that look like tornado clouds but they're not ):

My mother with her gigantic banana split. she shared it with my stepdad.

Me and my dog, Opie just before I went to bed.

Took a mirror pic because i really had nothing better to do (:

I think I'm going to go out into the living room or den to watch some movies because i hit the mall.

MALL

2009-06-20T20:46:00.001+08:00

Hihihi! I'm going to the mall for the first time since I came back with this kid (:

he used to be my bestfriend but we stopped talking for awhile and now we're talkin again (: i don't care, im spending money in ae and a&f today. im cravingggggggggggg. ill take pictures (:

PALE

2009-06-20T02:05:00.001+08:00

I took a picture of myself and realized that i'm extremely fair. omg. help me.

TWITTER

2009-06-19T11:00:00.001+08:00

everyone has to follow me on TWITTER now!

shopping spree

2009-06-18T18:23:00.002+08:00

wow, i feel so at home again.
yesterday, my mom took me out on a shopping spree.
not for clothes, for food and whatever decorations i want for my room.
clothes should be some other day haha.
i don't hear traffic anymore, actually, at night, i don't hear anything at all. it's silent. wow i missed this.
i got a new phone too :] unlimited texting&web usage but 1400mins a month haha and there's no free incoming, it charges the minutes. See how lucky SINGAPOREANS are?!
this is the phone i got because i wanted it to be touchscreen and had a qwerty keypad :]

there's not much more to post about. i just woke up and it's only 6:40am. i guess i have to get used to the time change.

and i have to follow the rules from my mom again. i don't have anymore freedom :[

okay, i need some breakfast.

usa :]

2009-06-17T12:41:00.004+08:00

heyhihello!

i'm finally home again :]

the bloody plane ride took 24hours! I was bored to death. all i could do was sleep, eat and watch movies. i watched confessions of a shopaholic and some horror movie. Jeannette would've definitely screamed hahahaha.

When i landed, my stepdad drove us to a mall for dinner. the food was okay. the mall was deserted.

when i reached home, my dog has been sticking next to me like glue. he hasnt left my side. even when i was in the shower, he followed me haha. i missed him.

i'm 12 hours behind you all. it's 12:47am right now. I'm starting to get tired.

ttyl.

death

2009-06-13T00:31:00.004+08:00

it's easier if you expect someone to die rather than a sudden death. it hurts a lot more.

this time, i have to be mentally prepared as i am leaving my family and friends and i might not be able to see them alive again.

everything happens for a reason.

i'm tired, i haven't slept well in 4 nights. i don't even have time nor the ability to sleep nowadays. it's so busy and stressful. i hope life in usa will be easier like it used to be.

i'm glad han accompanied me to buy the stuff my mom wants. now my mind is more at ease lol

wow i'm like emo-ing. ok i'm done.

unexpected.

2009-06-11T15:56:00.004+08:00

Written on 10/06/09:

Yesterday, I went to Lot 1 with Jeannette for a manicure and pedicure. While we were still there, I received a phone call from my uncle. He told me to text my mom that my 3rd uncle has passed away. My mouth dropped. I couldn’t believe it.

I immediately texted my mom the news and she called the following night. This morning, I received a email from her.

“…When you attend the funeral, please whisper to uncle Dave to let him know that mommy loved and will miss him a whole bunch. Tell him that it breaks my heart that I cannot even be there to say goodbye.”

After reading that, it immediately made me cry. It was the first time I cried over my uncle’s death. I knew my mom was in pain. She was close to my uncle. I can only imagine her reaction when she received the news from me.

We’re doing the funeral the Christian and Catholic way. My grandma has called her pastor for tonight and tomorrow night will be the Catholic way of the wake. The funeral is on Friday. I hope I don’t get too emotional.

On the good side, at least my uncle isn’t suffering anymore. He’s been fighting brain and heart cancer for awhile and when I heard about his death, I assumed he gave up, but later I found out he died of a heart attack. I didn’t expect it at all.

I’m glad he isn’t suffering anymore. He’s in heaven with Him now. I’m sure He’s a lot happier there.

Everything’s happening so fast. In 6 days, my life’s about to change again. I’ll be back in USA and I’ll have to adapt to a different lifestyle. I really wonder what else is in store for me. I know that He will only give me obstacles that I will be able to overcome.

Friends video

2009-06-07T20:17:00.000+08:00

BUGISSSS :]

2009-06-04T19:07:00.011+08:00

Yilin's overview (Too lazy to write mine :]):

Okay, basically i went for a movie (Night at the Museum 2) with a bunch of bitches, namely, Claudia, Jeannette and Xiaowan. Jocelyn wasn't there cos she was bleeding and nearly died (She went to extract 3 of her tooth) Yesterday was a sunny day! Met the bitches at JE Mrt station @ 2pm, i was late. Sorry! Then we went to buy Kala (which is highly addictive, damn tasty) then we walked around Bugis Street, supposed to go and find Yuting but she wasn't working yesterday, so never mind. Then we went to BugisJunction/Parco, there was this guy who approach almost everyone saying that they can be models, this guy approached C & J and they were overjoyed Hahahah. Okay, then W & J had Uzumaki. Xiaowan and I were so nice, we bought 300g of Famous Amos for the bitch, C. It was the one in golden box No nut chocolate chip, cos Xiaowan thought that she don't eat nuts. After that, went to buy the tickets. And went Parco to take neoprints! The machine suck like hell pls And the workers there are kpkb! Don't go there take neoprint Walked to Bugis Street again to buy Kala, zz! The movie was great!! Okay i would rate it at 4 , very nice ^^ C & J were already laughing their heads off, i couldn't imagine if we were watching Rush Hour Lol. Kkkk, damn the Kala, made me, J & C down with sorethroat today, (not sure about W) Arghhhhh!! And tmr is Arts Night, how how how! TSKKKK!! And W is flying to Thai today! I'm going to miss you! (Better buy something good)

thennnnn after all that crazy stuff, I got off at choa chu kang mrt to go to jeannette's house. Before we went to her house, we went to the roof garden in lot 1. We saw a water playground and decided to play with it & got soaking wet. Then we went through lot 1 wet so alot of people were staring at us. It was VERY funny. Then we took the LRT home while we were still wet. Jeannette was nervous because she wants to reach home before her parents and if they beat us, she came up with an excuse.

C: Just tell them we fell into the pool.

J: No I fell into the pond.

C: And you dragged me along?

J: No, you jumped in to save me (serious look)
LOL

But we ended up beating them so we were okay :]

Flight.

2009-06-02T09:55:00.010+08:00

~~Most likely~~ confirmed

Date: 16/06/09

Time: 7:10am departure.

5am check in.

still want to spend the night at the airport with me?

I'm confused.

2009-05-31T23:38:00.001+08:00

UPDATE

Okay, i'm not leaving on the 30th. I have to see if I can leave on a weekend so I can leave on the first week of July :]

I am :]

2009-05-31T23:15:00.002+08:00

At first, I was in a state of shock and I was feeling sad because my grandma told me i was leaving in 2 weeks. Then my mother emailed me and asked me which tuesday or thursday so i want to leave :] Then I told her I want to leave on the 30th :] As flipping late as possible. I can't leave in July because I'll need the month to readjust to everything there. I think I can maybe get a license and car soon! :]

A lot of my friends are going to spend the night at the airport with me because they don't have afternoon flights haha We'll see how that turns out.

I went to church again today. It was a mini-emerge weekend. I'm so happy I went back. I felt a strong presence of God today. I paid some of my building funds. I repented. I felt happy haha I found it funny how they tried to make a hip hop song and I was laughing my butt off at it.

Friendssss

2009-05-29T22:54:00.004+08:00

Not everyone's in it. In fact, only a few are. These are the only ones in my camera's memory card. It's ok. We still have the june holiday to make a video together :D

Last Day of School

2009-05-28T21:31:00.003+08:00

Oh my god!
Today is filled with DRAMA!
Before school even started, B walked over to Jeannette and I and told us Minjee is crying.
So we were all really shocked and ran to find her. Skipped assembly.
First period.
Mdm Tang told me off for "eating."
Then, I said "bo liao," not even referring to her or her class. She told me off again so I was very annoyed at her. I didn't even know she could hear me. B, who was sitting right in front of me couldn't even hear me. I was referring to people who would actually go to the library to read newspaper haha. Right after her class is bio, I went over and sat next to William and bitched.
Anyway, of course, all the teachers asked where was I and I told them that I'm withdrawing out of school.
My results suck. Mdm. Tang didn't see why I should go back.
Here's why:
In usa, I was a top student, I got straight A's. I'm on the track to go to an ivy league university with a scholarship.
In singapore, I suck. I'm failing. I'm not going anywhere. I don't even think I can go to poly.

So... which one is the wiser choice?

Anyway, afterschool, we went to westmall and ate sakae sushi then left.

Not going into details :]

Oh, and I'm definitely not going to miss anymore church events. I feel so sinful. I need to repent. I shouldn't swear anymore or rebel.

Hi Mommy.

2009-05-26T18:40:00.002+08:00

Claudia: Mommy, when am I going back? And am I travelling by myself or are you coming back?

Mommy: I am working and will not be able to go back. You will have to travel by yourself and I will let you know when. Maybe towards the end of June.

Too soon :[ Not even a year in Singapore and I'm already going back. I guess it's best.
I'm sorry I "cheated everyone's feelings" haha.
I'm going to miss everything alot.

Fun :]

2009-05-25T20:48:00.002+08:00

malaysia was fun :]friday: city square - sushi kingsaturday: wanton mee (breakfast), jusco, BBQsunday: bowling, city square overview, a lot more happened.

reason why i have to go back

2009-05-21T19:21:00.003+08:00

exams suck. i'm going back.
stupid captain's ball also sucked.

i think God is punishing me for not going to church and cgm and not tithing and owing building funds.

I suck.

Han sucks too because he's so damn petty.
He's at fault too!

Exams

2009-05-18T18:20:00.004+08:00

Exams are finally over :]
Definitely failed my chemistry paper. yay.

Tomorrow, I will be going out with Jeannette and Han to vivo city.
What an adventure! haha
Hope everything turns out well.
I need a miracle LOL!

Oh and I got called a bitch by yilin and xiao wan so many times today for going back to usa.
i almost believed it. HA!

& wayne, get over her :]

Hanzalah

2009-05-17T01:30:00.002+08:00

Oh and i kept talking to Han aka luo han yu on the phone. My extreme bonding partner wasn't very happy. haha but she said some very mean stuff to him. she's such a bitch ♥

seoul garden :]

2009-05-16T21:50:00.005+08:00

Yesterday, I went home after school and received a call from beverly saying they're on their way to seoul garden. Wailoon paid for me haha thanks :] ill treat you next time! me and jeannette had fun making ice kachangs and holding up the line because we were taking our own sweet time haha :] we're crazy whenever we're together!

After that, I took Jeannette to watch the ramen girl then that female dog made me follow her into the ajisen ramen restaurant with her. she's crazy!

omg and i havent study today. Chemistry!! :[ :[ :[ die.

Backsliding

2009-05-11T09:59:00.005+08:00

omg, i feel like i've been backsliding this weekend.
i didn't go to my cell group meeting and even got into an argument with someone over it.
i didn't go to church neither.
i haven't tithed in a long time.
i haven't paid my building funds.
i need Him to help me get back closer to Him.

Please help me get back to You. Teach me how to love You more.

i heard that i might be going back to usa.
i'm happy and sad. i'm already dreading it, but i can't help but look forward to it.
i miss usa but i'm definitely going to miss singapore even more.
i haven't even been in singapore for a year and there are already plans for me to go back. i'm not sure if i should be happy about this.
i DO want to go back because i miss my friends, school, house, life, and i can get closer to him ♥.
i don't want to go back because i'll miss my friends, school, food, public transportation, etc.
i think i need to go back in order to have a better future. i can't expect to have a bright future with my current school grades.
HOW?!

on the bright side, if i do go back, i can get my license and and drive :]

back to endless studying.. i need some fun now.

2009-05-10T20:39:00.001+08:00

I need a break.

missed him

2009-05-07T22:26:00.002+08:00

Webcammed with Chuck for the first time in what seems like forever. I missed him :[ Took some pictures with him. He's adorable :]

Yesterday's news

2009-04-27T18:59:00.007+08:00

Took some pictures with jam :]

Giving up.

2009-04-27T18:55:00.002+08:00

Argh! Today, school was so frustrating! I got so annoyed by math that i just had to stop what I was doing for awhile and calm myself down so I can work again. The hot sweating disgustingly humid environment didn't help neither.

Exams are coming up in 1 week and I am no where near ready :[

i need a miracle.

On the way to church :]

2009-04-25T11:12:00.001+08:00

School

2009-04-25T10:27:00.002+08:00

POP was yesterday. Alot of people cried lol I found it funny and Jocelyn was calling me a bitch for laughing! haha We had pizzas and alot of JUNK FOOD! I think I gained 100kgs. Me and Jeannette left the party for about 15 mins and went to play basketball in OUR SKIRTS with 3 guys hahahaha. We had rules like they can't block us nor can they steal our ball but we can :] LOL Talked to mdm choo for awhile and she encouraged me to do well in school.

Speaking of which,

I aim to PASS my exams. It really seems impossible right now :[
I was just reviewing the past examination papers for a math and i can't really do much.
It's VERY stressful because I've never done this poorly ever. in my life and it's really discouraging me.

I want to talk to my mother about me getting tuition and she's already very stressed in usa because of the house and trying to patch it back. She had to quit her job in order to do it and my father isn't doing very good in his job neither because his job purely depends on te economy and since the economy really sucks right now, he can't work much. I hope obama really do something soon.

After when everything's more settled there, I wish to go back so I can continue studying there. I really cannot cope with the schoolwork here and it's in a way, ruining my future. I don't have any regrets coming back to Singapore though. I've met some of the most amazing people here :] and I got closer to God than I've ever been. When I was in USA, i missed the feeling of going to church every week. Now I'm back and doing it again :]

Ouch

2009-04-17T06:01:00.001+08:00

I've been sore for 2 days :[

NAPFA sucks. I didn't even get to train so I was almost clueless to everything.

Me, Bev and Jeannette are going to get gold next year :]

just watch.

here it goes...

2009-04-14T21:29:00.002+08:00

Choir today was reasonable :] no one yelled at me for no reason today! woot! haha. I was actually trying to sing and shutting jeannette up! :]

& I don't know what to do about the BBQ this saturday :[
I have cca that day and I want to go because SYF is coming up!

OMG JOEI AND EDSEL BROKE UP :[[[[[[[[[[ what.the.hell?!

Jamille and Darren broke up too but they kinda didn't break up?? haha idk

relationships are confusing so you better not have one kids ;]

Geylang =]

2009-04-11T07:37:00.003+08:00

2009-04-11T07:03:00.005+08:00

April 9:

Cross Country/My birthday ♥

Went to Jeannette's house at 6:30am then her dad took us to the cross country site =] thanks!When we arrived, we didn't know what to do or where to go, so we stayed by the carpark for a while. We saw some students going through a pathway so we followed them haha. When we got there, we realized we weren't that early afterall. Many were already there lol. Everyone wished me a happy birthday =] Jared wanted to go up to the mic to sing to me LOL but they didn't let him =] So embarassing! YES I KNOW WHAT EMBARASSING IS! haha After cross country, we took some pictures and went to umm, some place that looked like geylang and ate there haha Then we took a bus to far east plaza and changed there. OMG i looked like hell:

Took those pictures in the bathroom while i was still putting on makeup. More pictures are coming from Pasta Cafe =]

hello love :]

2009-04-07T21:20:00.002+08:00

i haven't been posting for awhile, but i have my reasons :]

today was ok, except in choir, alot of conflict happened and i didnt really get a chance to voice out my opinion because if i did, i would be 'disrespectful' to the 'seniors' who were supposed to show good examples and be role models.

anyway, i'm not going to go into details since you never know who might be reading it :]

i was on the phone with my mom for about an hour today talking about schoolwork.
i've decided and told her that i'm planning to go back to usa to finish my 'secondary school' because i really cannot adapt to the school system here for various reasons.

and for my birthday, i'm actually not planning much.
so surprise me :]

can't stand it anymore

2009-03-09T20:47:00.004+08:00

i really can't stand it anymore. the schools in singapore really think we don't have lives. sometimes, the teachers can't be understanding. they give us homework which just keeps piling up and expects us to do it and hand it in on time. this is why the students here are damn stressed. we can't even have fun during the weekends. it's all about school. we can't be kids -.-

i just wish i'm back in malaysia with beverly and jeannette. we forgot about school and actually had fun.

i want to go back to america -.-

pictures.

2009-03-05T19:20:00.005+08:00

two days ago, the choir went to the victoria concert hall to for some syf rehearsal. me and jeannette camwhored alot =] not so much for bev. because we were in school and she thought that she looked bad?

surveyyyy

2009-02-20T15:59:00.002+08:00

1. beside your lips, where is the favourite spot to get kissed

-noseee haha

2. how do you feel when you wake up this morning?

- happy =]

3. who was the last person you took a photo with?

- jessica i think

4. would you considered yourself to be spoiled?

- umm..

5. would you ever donate blood?

-i want to! i can this year =]

6. have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?

-still do <3

7. do you want someone dead?

-nopee

8. what does your last text message says?

-loverest you <3 you'll do fine <3

9. what are you thinking right now?

- him =]

10. do you wish someone be with you right now?

- yesssss omg !

11. what is the time you go to sleep last night?

-11 plus

12. where did you buy the t-shirt you are wearing now?

- rue 21 in usa

13. is someone on your mind right now?

- mhm =]

14. who was the last person who texted you?

- chuckiee <3

10 ppl tagged to do this quiz.

no one =] i'm just bored.

hmm..

2009-02-09T16:01:00.006+08:00

just got back from cgm. funnnnn :D played with the wii and fellowshipped. and of course, i camwhored too, with jun hao as usual haha. i love my friendssss <3 school ="[" am ="[[[" align="center">

speaking of school...

i wanna know how did all my schoolmates find this blog?! and added me on facebook before i even started school! ha, maybe i should check my friendster too.

school is VERY stressful. i'm piled up with homework and skipped alot of lessons which makes it harder to catch up. I have to thanks xuan wen though. without her, i would be completely lost during lessons. so THANK YOU!!! =]

even though it's valentines day tomorrow, i plan on sleeping in because school wore me out. i'm extremely exhausted mentally and physically. i'm talking to my bestfriend, chuck on oovoo for awhile though =] i don't think ill be the person i am today without him. he knows exactly how to make me laugh and smile and he's so sweet and romantic! omg, no wonder his girlfriend's in love with him lol now it seems like i like him too xD besides nik, i don't think anyone can make me laugh and smile as much as he can. he's the best friend anyone could ever ask for and it's going to stay that way for a hell of a long time <3>

chuck:

he looks so adorableeee =] haha

camwhoring =] :

what happened on sunday..

2009-02-03T15:37:00.008+08:00

ok, my blog is 2 days late, but it's better than nothing, right? =]

anyway..

Last Sunday, nobody went to church but like 6 people and idk why?

after church, i went to jun hao's house to get my camera back. I stayed for a few hours and cam whored =] then we decided to go to the arcade. On the way there, I recorded a video with Jun Hao and Joanna in it. I made another one while we were waiting for the mrt, including Ginny. Then I left while they went over to Ginny's house to watch a movie.

cam whoring:

Tigga, pleasee!

2009-01-27T18:00:00.002+08:00

hahahahaha cracked me uppp! =]

<3

2009-01-25T16:31:00.004+08:00

i love him haha =]

(:

2009-01-24T23:17:00.006+08:00

today was fun :]
i talked to my friend chuck for like hours like we used to when i was in america, omg i missed him!
then i went to get ready to go to church. I met Jessica at causeway then we met KK.
Met up with Joei at church and attended service with her, mannn I had fun "texting" her during service haha
After service, I went to dinner with my stepdad near my old woodlands house.
then i came home :]

* me and joei took ALOT of pictures which I shall post it later.

oh and i <3 nik ="]

Ha

2009-01-24T10:49:00.002+08:00

I'm just posting this so i won't be considered unactive (:

busy day

2008-11-18T23:45:00.003+08:00

hello (: met up with jun hao today in orchard at 12 and we "slacked" until 4.

we went to the new urban male interview and had to wait damn long. jun hao was very nervous haha. had to keep telling him to relax! but he didnt listen.

after that i told jun hao that i wanted to see the christmas decorations at night. so we chilled at mooks for a few hours with lessie, the guy we met when we were applying for a job there. he's very lame okay (: haha.

we took some pictures but i have to get the camera usb from fiona because i cant find mine.

yer, i think thats it. oh yeah

ASIA CONFERENCE STARTS TOMORROW :D who's NOT in for it?!

2008-10-28T15:24:00.003+08:00

thanks brenda and joei.

yesterday, i met up with donald in serangoon central and we went to plaza singapura BY OURSELVES. thankyoujoeiandbrenda -.-

we went there, walked for like 5 minutes, went to manhattan ate dinner and left (:

theEnd

babyyyyyy

2008-10-21T17:25:00.003+08:00

Mine (:

BACK

2008-10-20T19:48:00.001+08:00

its not dead anymore ALLY! lol (:

and i'm in singapore for those that doesnt know haha

I have nothing else to say soo BYE <3

It's been awhile :]

2008-06-02T02:30:00.003+08:00

I finally decided to check out blogger once again.
Life has been pretty busy lately.
SUMMER VACATION IS FINALLY HERE!
I would like to change my blog skin, but it kinda seems IMPOSSIBLE.
I won't be going back to Singapore this summer :(
I'm learning how to drive :] haha, imagine me on the road.
I've been playing global maple story a lot lately.
I went to one of my friend's wedding.. CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT?! She's only 17! (I'll put up some pictures later. Remind me to.)

I think that's about it.

Tagged by SHANA!!

2007-11-16T10:25:00.000+08:00

1. Do the following WITHOUT complaint
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours.
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.
4. Start your post with; I have been tagged!I have been tagged by SHANA.

FAVOURITES
Favourite Colour: PINK
Favourite Movie:THE HOLIDAY
Favourite Food:FOOD! LOL
Favourite Sport:SWIMMING, FOOTBALL & DANCING
Favourite Day:CHRISTMAS :)
Favourite Season:Summer.
Favourite ice-cream: BANANA SPLIT

CURRENTS
Current Mood:TIRED
Current Clothes:PJS
Current Desktop: THIS
Current Time:9:28PM
Current Surroundings:MY ROOM
Current Annoyances:WET HAIR(MINE!)

FIRST
First Best Friend:FIONA
First Crush:IDR HAHA
First Movie:IDR
First Lie:IDR
First Music:IDR

LASTS
Last drink:COKE
Last Crush:LET'S CALL HIM BOB :)
Last Phone Call:MOTHER.
Last CD played:DON'T PLAY CD, MP3s ARE NOW THE NEW CD!

HAVE YOU EVER....
Have you ever dated one of your good friends:YEAH HAHA
Have you ever broken the law:YUP
Have you ever been arrested:Nah.
Have you ever been on TV:YEAH
Have you ever kissed someone you dont know:NO!

Random 5 things you are good at:
# BREATHE
# LAUGH
# TALK
# SLEEP
# HAVE FUN

5 Things you've done today:
# SCHOOL
# TALK
# LAUGH
# EAT
# COMPUTER

5 Things you can hear right now:
# TV
# KEYBOARD
# HEATER
#
#

5 People to tag:
ANYONE THAT WANTS TO DO IT.

Old school day

2007-11-11T09:04:00.001+08:00

Spirit week!

2007-11-09T07:25:00.000+08:00

Spirit week is FUN! It's basically the week the football(rugby) game ends. the first day was career day, then nerd, royalty, today's old school (pics coming soon), & tomorrow's the game & also spirit day ( basically means you wear the school colour, which happens to be red black & white, to school). Oh, the one in gym was taken on nerd day I think & since it was on spirit week, i posted it.

Spirit Week!

2007-11-09T07:16:00.001+08:00

Nerd Day

Spirit Week!

2007-11-09T07:13:00.000+08:00

Royalty Day!

Spirit Week!

2007-11-09T07:11:00.000+08:00

Nerd Day!

Spirit week!

2007-11-09T07:07:00.000+08:00

Career Day!

Cute quiz

2007-11-05T04:14:00.001+08:00

~What colour is your heart?~
created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Pink

Your heart is pink. You're everyone's friend. Woo go you! Everyone loooves you!! You're the definition of a true friend, which is why you mean so much to your friends. You will do anything to see your friends smile, you have a great quality- don't change for anybody.

Pink

93%

Blue

86%

Yellow

86%

Green

57%

Purple

57%

Red

43%

Orange

29%

Black

White

More pictures from school.

2007-10-28T20:56:00.001+08:00

More pictures! Yeah, we were bored haha.

School!

2007-10-26T05:41:00.000+08:00

Took some pictures with my friends in PE class, that explains why I'm dressed down haha! The kinda Asian looking one is Jessica, aka. Jessie. The other one is Alexandra aka Alex. Even though I look very bad in some of the pictures. I enjoy the memories :)

NEW! [:

2007-10-19T03:14:00.001+08:00

New default picture. You can click on it, and it leads to a different picture of me haha!

Pretty Funny

2007-10-18T04:23:00.000+08:00

Your True Love Is an Aries

Why you'll love an Aries:

An Aries has the red-hot seduction skills to woo you
Never boring, an Aries will give you the romantic challenge you crave!

Why an Aries will love you:

You have the intensity and energy to go head to head with your Aries...
And the undying passion to keep an Aries coming back for more.

What Sign Is Your True Love?

HALLOWEEN!

2007-10-16T08:28:00.001+08:00

That's my halloween costume. I went to the store & most of the costumes are for bimbos >_> Yeah I'm an "Angel" hahaha!

AHHH! Fight in school!

2007-10-03T05:18:00.000+08:00

There was a HUGE fight in school. It was in the commons area. It was a gang fight. 40+ people were in it. about 5 got arrested. 1 is in the hospital. they don't know if he is going to make it... about 5 teachers got punched for trying to stop the fight. Rumors going around that tomorrow, someone's going to bring a gun because he wants to kill someone :/ SCARED!! Don't want to go to school!!

I BEAT UP SOMEONE TWICE THE SIZE AS ME! LMAO!

2007-09-30T09:25:00.000+08:00

Yeah, title's self-explanatory :P
He wouldn't admit it! His mother and my mother were watching the whole thing and they were laughing the whole time AHAHAAHAHAHA!! AH! I hate him! He is so damn cocky!
Well, I gtg. PEACE.

OMGOSH!

2007-09-23T09:19:00.000+08:00

So the family reunion wasn't today. It's not even at the location we went to!!! It's next week and 200 miles away... Anyway, I'm VERY tired. Going to bed. PEACEEEEEEE.

By the way

2007-09-22T08:28:00.000+08:00

Obviously I changed my current default pic LOL!

Old Update

2007-09-22T08:13:00.000+08:00

Sorry =/ I've been pretty busy with school lately, but this event happened over the weekend of 7th September. I went to Myrtle Beach. It was pretty fun. Took some pictures. We went there to celebrate my mother's b-day. Here are the pictures:

Tomorrow, we are going to my step-dad's family reunion. On Sunday, we might be going to the pond to fish with family friends, don't know yet.

AHHH!

2007-08-27T02:44:00.000+08:00

12 am in the morning & bored x]
we were suppose to do "lust" in the seven deadly sins
yeah haha
i'm not lusty xD

School

2007-08-22T06:58:00.000+08:00

School, was pretty ok today. Nothing really special happened, but I'm piled with homeworks & tests & "pop quizzes."

1st period:
American Government. All I can say is BORING! Talked about some American constitution crap & the bill of rights, well I hardly paid attention, surprised I didn't fall asleep.

homeroom:
Mainly talked & joked around with one of my good friend Mary. That's it.

2nd period:
Literature/Composition. AHHHHH!!!! That teacher is soooo stressful! We barely did anything though. Don't remember :P wasn't paying attention again.

3rd period:
Algebra. We did the "basics" which are order of operation & fraction. We paired up with different people and did the OFO & fractions in groups.

4th period:
Physics. Quiz & metric system.

Lunch:
FUN! but there's this girl who is... AH! I hate her. She took one of my bestest friend's food. Ok, Brittany was waiting for her food, so she took some of my fries. When her food arrived, the girl that I hate, I think her name is Becca or Christina or something like that, took her food, SHE DIDN'T EVEN BUY A LUNCH, and started eating it. All I wanted was a few fries, & what did she do? She was like, "ummmm, Brittany gave me those" and I said, "So? She took some of my fries." So she called for Brittany to tell ME that that was hers, & of course Brittany told her to give me the fries :P I shall nickname her Bitch from now on [: She dared asked me for some of my snacks earlier, HECK NO!

5th period:
Spanish. Boring! The teacher is Dutch, & I can barely understand her. So I didn't pay attention.

6th period:
P.E. Just did some usual stuff, like sit ups and push ups. At the end of the period, we just "chilled" and talked. James & Charlie, both or my friend, started cussing & arguing, and I was sitting beside them. If I didn't stop them, one of them would probably end up in the hospital.

THAT'S IT!

Sorry!

2007-08-14T08:37:00.000+08:00

The school band cameras :[ so I can't take any pictures. Maybe they will let us at the end of the school year, idk. Just wait and see then =/

The first day of school was hectic 101! I already have a TEST this Thursday! @&*)*(#(&@)!! WTH! The whole day, I was just focusing on staying awake lol :P & I had to wait for 30 minutes before I get my lunch, & on a normal day, you only get 30 minutes to eat... That's not going to work out peeps! LOL People kept cutting in front of me, I thought I was going to like cut in front of them or something haha! The chinese food they had was a DISGRACE to the Chinese. SO DISGUSTING! I want my $2 back!!!!!!!

SURVEYYYYY [:

2007-08-04T23:09:00.000+08:00

40 Secrets About Myself

[One] Have you ever been asked out?
yea

[Two] Where was your default picture taken?
bathroom

[Three] Your current relationship status?
single

[Four] Do you like anyone?
nope

[Five] Does your crush like you back?
nope, no crush

[Six] What is your current mood?
tired

[Seven] what color underwear are you wearing?
white, with hot pink, light pink, purple & blue hearts

[Eight] What color shirt are you wearing?
gray

[Ten] If you could go back in time and change something, what would you do?
idk

[Eleven] If you must be an animal for one day, what would you be?
bird

[Thirteen] Something you do a lot?
breathe

[Fourteen] The song stuck in your head?
why cant we be friends!!!

[Fifteen] Who did you copy and paste this from?
Whitney O

[Sixteen] Name someone with the same birthday as you?
Jesse McCartney

[Seventeen] When was the last time you cried?
idr

[Eighteen] Have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
yes

[Nineteen] If you could have one super power what would it be?
a super power that lets me do whatever super power i want [:

[Twenty] Whats the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
depends if something catches my eye

[Twenty-one] What do you usually order from starbucks?
order a bunch of stuff

[Twenty-two] What's your biggest secret?
don't have one, & if i do, i wouldn't tell the whole world...

[Twenty-three] Favorite color?
pink

[Twenty-five] Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
sometimes

[Twenty-six] What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
nothing

[Twenty-seven] Do you speak any other language?
yes

[Twenty-eight] What's your favorite smell?
idk

[Twenty-nine] Describe your life in one word?
random

[Thirty-one] Have you ever kissed in the rain?
nopeee

[Thirty-two] What are you thinking about right now?
shower

[Thirty-three] What should you be doing?
get ready to go to the mall

[Thirty-four] Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
i don't remember

[Thirty-five] How often do you pray?
enough

[Thirty-six] Do you like working in the yard?
sure

[Thirty-eight] Do you act differently around the person you like?
nope

[Thirty-nine] What is your natural hair color?
dark dark dark almost black brown

[Forty] Who was the last person to make you cry?
idr

No parents for 3 days [:

2007-08-02T21:10:00.000+08:00

My parents left today about 30 mins ago to go to Tennessee, another state until Saturday. So I'll be home alone... with my brothers for 3 days. She bought alot of food & stocked up the snack cabinet :]]]]]]

2007-08-02T10:53:00.001+08:00

You Inner Gender is Female

You're sensitive, caring, and willing to connect with anyone who's open to you.
You make friends easily, and you enjoy all sorts of conversations.
You understand most people you meet - better than they understand themselves.
You're totally a woman... or at the very least, your soul is female.

What's Your Inner Gender?

Done!

2007-08-02T06:43:00.000+08:00

Done coding (: WHOOO! but it looks different on mozilla firefox. The background doesn't blend. Whatever. haha! I think I might switch it back though, I'm not sure if I like it yet

New Layout

2007-08-01T12:24:00.001+08:00

I've made a new layout, but it's too late to code it now. So I'm doing it tomorrow, hopefully.
Here's what it looks like:
{Click for the full size}

Nothing to blog

2007-07-31T05:29:00.000+08:00

Yeah, so there's nothing to blog about, so enjoy [:

[Click on the image for the full size]

Fuck Gilman

2007-07-29T06:35:00.000+08:00

I hate him! He literally almost burn down the whole house, AND EVERYONE IS FUCKING BLAMING ME FOR IT!

The story:
One day we were all hungry, so we all decided that we should eat instant noodles.
After Bryan finished microwaving his, I was going to do it, but since mine wasn't ready, with the seasoning and stuff, Gilman went ahead. After seasoning it, my mother told me to go outside to get her some stuff, so I told Gilman to put mine in the microwave after he's done with his. He did, but that dumbass didn't put water in it... Thinking he wasn't such a dumbass, i left the house to get what my mother told me to get. When I came back, the microwave was smoking BADDDD. And Gilman yelled at me, telling me that my noodles was on fire.... DUH! DUMBASS! He didn't fucking put water in it. So my mother came out asking what happened, and i told her that my noodles was on fire. Well, Gilman walked away, thinking he wasn't at fault. I got yelled at by my mother, Gilman pretended he was so innocent and all. So I was left to clean up that fucking mess. Later, about an hour later, there was still the burning smell, so my step-father came out and asked everyone what happened. Gilman was behind me the whole time, didn't admit it. I told him it was my noodles, so he immediately asummed it was my fault. That was the second fucking time I got yelled at. My mother was also behind me the whole time, and I told her that it wasn't my fault and explained everything. So she glared at Gilman, and all she said was why didn't he put water in it, and he's response was he forgot because he haven't made it in awhile. So my mother just said something, then dismissed it... *&#*(&@*(#&()@!!! I was pissed off then. And today, when my mother saw that the microwave was still yellow from the burn, she told me to clean it again, & forgot that it was Gilman's fault. So I was boiling up inside, and i didn't want to yell at her because she was in one of her good mood. And I am as pissed as ever right now.

This Summer

2007-07-23T05:47:00.000+08:00

SO far in Summer 07, HAVE YOU....

1. Saw an Ex and missed them?
nope

2.Told someone I love You?
yep

3.Cried?
Yea.

4.Wanted someone you couldn't have?
Nope.

5.Been to the Beach?
Yea.

6.Got drunk?
nope

7.Stayed up all night?
yep

8.Went out of state?
yup

9.Went swimming?
duh!

10. Been hit on?
yeah

11.Been asked out?
yes

13.Got in a car with a stranger?
Nope.

14.Lost someone close?
nope

15.Slept in someone else's bed?
Hmm yup.

16.Been grounded?
nope

17.Ran away?
nope

18. Regret something?
Nope.

19.Lied?
nope

20.Done anything against the law?
probably

21. Been to a BBQ?
Yea.

22.Gotten in a fight?
nope

23.Stayed in a motel?
Nope.

24.Flirted with someone?
nope

25.Skinny dipped?
No.

26.Gone to a concert?
NO.

28.Almost died?
Nah.

29.Met a celebrity?
nope

30.Kissed more than 2 people?
no

You can see how bored am I today

2007-07-20T07:29:00.000+08:00

My History

01. Raised in: singapore

02. Planned baby: nope

03. Birth date: april 9, 1993

04. Any siblings: yes

05. Younger or older? both

06. Hair color: dark brown

07. Hair length: long

09. Eye color: dark brown

10. Shoe size: 7½ - 8

11. Smell: good.

12. Height: 5'4

13. Left/right: rightyy!

LOVE LIFE:

01. Do you remember your first real relationship: kinda

02. Do you believe in love: yes

03. Why did your last relationship fail: he was too shy

04. Shortest relationship: a day

05. Have you ever been heartbroken: no

07. Have you ever fallen for your best friend: not really.

08. Have you ever told them:

09. You ever had a secret admirer: yes

10. Are you afraid of commitment: nope.

11. Do you believe in love at first sight: no

12. Ever been in love: no

THIS OR THAT:

01. Love or money: LOVE

02. Hard liquor or beer: neither

03. One night stands or relationships: relationshipss.

04. Television or internet: internet

05. Pepsi or coke: coke.

06. Wild night out or romantic night in: romantic night

07. Colored or black and white pictures: colored

08. Phone or in person: person.

09. Aim or myspace im: aim

HAVE YOU EVER:

01. Have you ever been caught sneaking out?: nope.:)

02. Have you ever skinny dipped? ...

03. Have you ever done something you regret? yes

04. Have you ever bungee jumped?: no

05. Have you ever been on a house boat?: no

06. Have you ever finished an entire jaw breaker? yes

07. Have you ever wanted someone so badly it hurt?: nope

08. Have you ever been streaking?: nope

09. Have you ever ran away?: no

01. Are you missing someone right now?: yes

02. Are you talking to anyone right now?: nope.

03 Are you bored right now?: extremely

04. Are you German?: no

05 Are you Irish?: no

06 Are you French?: no

07 Are you Italian?: no

08 Are you Norwegian?: no

09 Are you native American?: no

10 Are you Asian?: yes

11 Are your parents still married?: nope.

12 whats your greatest joys in life? have fun

OTHER:

01. Best friends: no best friends, just close ones

02. What do you do when you're together?: have as much fun we can have

03. Share the same interests?: yes pretty much.

04. Which friend can you tell everything to? the close ones

05. Do you have a low self esteem?: nope.

06. Do you get depressed about things easily?: not really.

07. Do you live life to the fullest?: i try too.

08. Are you comfortable with the way you look?: yess.

09. How do you dress? how ever i want to that day.

10. Are you scared of growing up old and alone? yess.

11. What do you want to be when you are older? something in the medical field

12. Do you prefer indoors or outdoors? indoors.

13. Favorite season?: summer//spring.

14. Do you like walking in the rain?: yess

15. Are you a vegetarian?: no.