UPDATE

Okay, i'm not leaving on the 30th. I have to see if I can leave on a weekend so I can leave on the first week of July :]

At first, I was in a state of shock and I was feeling sad because my grandma told me i was leaving in 2 weeks. Then my mother emailed me and asked me which tuesday or thursday so i want to leave :] Then I told her I want to leave on the 30th :] As flipping late as possible. I can't leave in July because I'll need the month to readjust to everything there. I think I can maybe get a license and car soon! :]

A lot of my friends are going to spend the night at the airport with me because they don't have afternoon flights haha We'll see how that turns out.



I went to church again today. It was a mini-emerge weekend. I'm so happy I went back. I felt a strong presence of God today. I paid some of my building funds. I repented. I felt happy haha I found it funny how they tried to make a hip hop song and I was laughing my butt off at it.

Not everyone's in it. In fact, only a few are. These are the only ones in my camera's memory card. It's ok. We still have the june holiday to make a video together :D

Oh my god!
Today is filled with DRAMA!
Before school even started, B walked over to Jeannette and I and told us Minjee is crying.
So we were all really shocked and ran to find her. Skipped assembly.
First period.
Mdm Tang told me off for "eating."
Then, I said "bo liao," not even referring to her or her class. She told me off again so I was very annoyed at her. I didn't even know she could hear me. B, who was sitting right in front of me couldn't even hear me. I was referring to people who would actually go to the library to read newspaper haha. Right after her class is bio, I went over and sat next to William and bitched.
Anyway, of course, all the teachers asked where was I and I told them that I'm withdrawing out of school.
My results suck. Mdm. Tang didn't see why I should go back.
Here's why:
In usa, I was a top student, I got straight A's. I'm on the track to go to an ivy league university with a scholarship.
In singapore, I suck. I'm failing. I'm not going anywhere. I don't even think I can go to poly.

So... which one is the wiser choice?

Anyway, afterschool, we went to westmall and ate sakae sushi then left.

Not going into details :]


Oh, and I'm definitely not going to miss anymore church events. I feel so sinful. I need to repent. I shouldn't swear anymore or rebel.

Claudia: Mommy, when am I going back? And am I travelling by myself or are you coming back?

Mommy: I am working and will not be able to go back. You will have to travel by yourself and I will let you know when. Maybe towards the end of June.



Too soon :[ Not even a year in Singapore and I'm already going back. I guess it's best.
I'm sorry I "cheated everyone's feelings" haha.
I'm going to miss everything alot.

exams suck. i'm going back.
stupid captain's ball also sucked.

i think God is punishing me for not going to church and cgm and not tithing and owing building funds.

I suck.


Han sucks too because he's so damn petty.
He's at fault too!

Exams are finally over :]
Definitely failed my chemistry paper. yay.

Tomorrow, I will be going out with Jeannette and Han to vivo city.
What an adventure! haha
Hope everything turns out well.
I need a miracle LOL!

Oh and I got called a bitch by yilin and xiao wan so many times today for going back to usa.
i almost believed it. HA!

& wayne, get over her :]

Oh and i kept talking to Han aka luo han yu on the phone. My extreme bonding partner wasn't very happy. haha but she said some very mean stuff to him. she's such a bitch ♥

Yesterday, I went home after school and received a call from beverly saying they're on their way to seoul garden. Wailoon paid for me haha thanks :] ill treat you next time! me and jeannette had fun making ice kachangs and holding up the line because we were taking our own sweet time haha :] we're crazy whenever we're together!

After that, I took Jeannette to watch the ramen girl then that female dog made me follow her into the ajisen ramen restaurant with her. she's crazy!


















omg and i havent study today. Chemistry!! :[ :[ :[ die.

omg, i feel like i've been backsliding this weekend.
i didn't go to my cell group meeting and even got into an argument with someone over it.
i didn't go to church neither.
i haven't tithed in a long time.
i haven't paid my building funds.
i need Him to help me get back closer to Him.

Please help me get back to You. Teach me how to love You more.





i heard that i might be going back to usa.
i'm happy and sad. i'm already dreading it, but i can't help but look forward to it.
i miss usa but i'm definitely going to miss singapore even more.
i haven't even been in singapore for a year and there are already plans for me to go back. i'm not sure if i should be happy about this.
i DO want to go back because i miss my friends, school, house, life, and i can get closer to him ♥.
i don't want to go back because i'll miss my friends, school, food, public transportation, etc.
i think i need to go back in order to have a better future. i can't expect to have a bright future with my current school grades.
HOW?!

on the bright side, if i do go back, i can get my license and and drive :]




back to endless studying.. i need some fun now.

Webcammed with Chuck for the first time in what seems like forever. I missed him :[ Took some pictures with him. He's adorable :]